Just shoot me now and get it over with

Seems like here lately I have been having more fucking bad days than good. I am over it already. I just don’t fucking know anymore. I am going to fucking go nuts. I am not cut out for small town life. I messed up again when I tried because everything just fell apart for me. I am trying to find out if I can get federal aid for schooling. I can’t swing it if I can’t. I feel stuck in my current career and not liking it. I am just sick off everything right now. I feel like banging my head on a wall as hard as I can. I know life is supposed to be hard, but why is everything fucking backfiring on me. I normally don’t let things like this bother me, and say tomorrow is another day but I am sure something will just backfire and fuck it up too. Yes I am whining but I don’t give a fuck, I just need to vent. Maybe I need to develop a drug problem, na, to expensive. I guess its all mind over matter, I don’t mind and it don’t matter.
On the plus side I am going to meet this girl saturday. I wouldn’t really call it a date, we are taking my kids and hers to chucky cheese. She is really nice. Maybe this will work out and things will start looking up from there. For now I am out.