My mind is set on overdrive, The clock is laughing in my face.

I pulled out my old router a d-link and hooked it up, but now I have a tail.  I miss wireless already, but at least the pages load faster.  Today I am missing Florida.  Mostly my job.  Yes I miss my dead end going nowhere at the top of the pay scale job.  I am trying to start a business off 350 a week checks and I don’t think its going to work.  I need a van and material which just out of reach.  I can probably do my first couple jobs out of my jeep with my trailer.  Urg this is just getting overwhelming, I need a xanax.  My anxitety is keeping me up at night and I am starting to get cranky.  I was going to take the kids school shopping today since one has pink eye and can’t go to daycare, so I stopped at the bank to deposite a check and learned my account was overdrawn.  After an hour at the bank, I still don’t get it, but school clothes are now on hold.  I am going to get them a first day outfit, which is this Friday.  Also I am now loosing my daycare assistance since school is in progress, so I am going nuts, URGH!  I miss having money, and think it wont be long befor I call Chuck (my old boss in FL) and take him up on his offer.  He has called me 2 times now trying to persuade me to come back.  He says he misses his walking code book.  But I am going to grab an ax and a log or two and kill some frustrations.